So, I wrote saying about how much I like to help and give advice and such and then I rant about my feelings which weren't too happy, so! I thought I'd start off with my posts properly with just reminding all those single pringles out there, that it's okay!

Why? Well, I'm in my last year of high school and I have seen so many people struggle with relationships and crushes and let it get to them when they're only starting their life. I can't remember all of the advice I've given in the past about this and most of the time, they still don't listen to me.

I have never been in a relationship so most of the time I feel as though my advice and my words of wisdom don't really have that much power because of that. But, despite feeling like I am the only one so positive about their relationship status in high school I want to put time and effort into making others feeling good and then maybe one day, someone will do the same for me. I don't want to sound fake, I'm being serious.

One things that has become almost a stereotype I think you can call it, is 'friend zoning' and how 'nice guys/girls finish last'. We live in a world shared by billions of other people and one thing we need more of us nice people - I personally don't think they'll stay alone for long. We see examples everyday of how people fight all odds to be together or how people of all shapes, sizes and backgrounds fall in love. How could it not be possible for you or your friend and family members? 

I think it was last year I was in a group conversation with a few of my friends and a few guys friends. One of my guy friends was talking of his struggle with the girl he liked and how he was a nice guy who always came last, beer getting the girl. He was saying there was no

hope for him, that he is always alone and no one would ever like him. 

I said to him that there is so much more to life than relationships especially since we're all still high school and we have our lives ahead of us and its filled with opportunities and he is bound to find someone to share that with. I also said that while he is chasing girls that don't return his feelings leading him to feel this way, he could be missing out and out there there might be someone who is already thinks he's worth everything to them without even realizing it.

Because, my best friend who read everything had a crush on him at the time and he didn't even know.

My point is, while you might think you are alone, you are never alone you just don't realize it. Out there is someone who will love you for everything you are!  

You might have had several relationships and be thinking, you don't understand guy/girls. Well, the thing is how can you understand guys or girls when none of us are the same? It just means that someone out there is right for you. Even if a relationship fails, it just means you are one step closer to finding the one right for you. 

And for those who have never been in a relationship like me or haven't been in one for a while, it can be pretty hard. I'm the girl that people come to for relationship advice despite my lack of experience. I help people feel happy and that can help, sometimes people ask me for help but then leave me when I need them. But, unfortunately that is reality. There are so many people out there though, don't let it get to you!

I found a song called 'Darling of All Hearts' by Sunny Hill. They're a Korean girl group but reading the lyrics, it is literally my life story (there are captions) :

They talk about how people only come to them when they're suffering and then they go and it's a bit lonely, but still having fun with friends and realizing that being single isn't all that bad can bring you happiness~

But, think of it as a positive and keep pushing forward! I think that because of this, when I find the right guy, I will have no negative history to hold me back and I'll be able to give the relationship all I've got! 

Until then, enjoy the little things. Enjoy the friendship you share with people, enjoy spending time with family as they will accept you no matter what, enjoy eating and tasting new things, enjoy learning and nurturing your mind, enjoy a good book and escape into a new world, enjoy the outside world, challenge yourself and enjoy life! xoxo

Nina

Hiya everyone, I hope you're well~

So I had my formal on Thursday (prom) and the whole experience is kind of ... weird for me. I don't know why I'm writing about this but I kind of need it out of my system.

Formal is something some girls in my grade planned half a year or more in advance and then there were some who bought dresses a week or so before. I left my planning a little late because I'm seriously so shy I was afraid of asking around to plan hair and make up etc. But, I had this vision of the kind of dress and found what I wanted online but didn't want to risk it. I ended up getting a beautiful Jovani dress, the same brand I was looking at online, and the store said no one from my school has come. Turns out I had the same dress as a friend of mine but a different colour. And the whole time I was hoping to stand out and be unique.

I did get the basic things organised but because the dress cost a lot I didn't want to go all out with nails and accessories, but I felt like I was missing out because of this. I wasn't feeling the hype everyone was feeling: counting down the days till formal, making plans and everything. Even the lady who was doing my hair noticed how chilled I was. A few hours before the actual event I had this feeling that I didn't want to go anymore. The day was so stressful since I needed last minute alterations and my makeup was done later than expected so I couldn't take as many photos and rushed outside without being completely ready.

Everyone was so beautiful that night and arriving was fun. I got an award for the neatest handwriting, woop woop! Everyone was taking photos with family and all their friends, but I realised that I was kind of just there. I sound like I have no friends, I do xD I arrived with my closest friends who I had already taken photos with (I didn't have a date :3). But I still felt as though I was more involved with other friendship circles throughout the year, I guess I was wrong.

Throughout the night and then afterwards when the photos and partying had ended, (I looked so bad in them it was like I was forcing a smile). It's like my confidence flew out the window when formal is meant to do the opposite. I've come to realize a few things, I haven't gone into detail about the formal because right now it depresses me, and I know why I didn't feel the hype, it was just leading me to feeling like this.

I'm usually not like this, I'm usually so positive and happy but I'm feeling the 'post-formal depression' in a different way from everyone else. After this year, it seems like everyone can easily forget me and I don't want that. I try my hardest to be kind and helpful to everyone, but I end up alone. I don't want to feel like this because I've become the person who is so confident and happy that people look to me to be reassured, to be cheered up and that I can bear anyone's problems and help them. I'm fine with being single, I'll help you through your relationships. I'm fine with how I look, I'll help you feel better. So much more. I can't afford  to feel like this, I love to help people, but why do I feel so insignificant? Is that all I can do, help bring people up and then end up like this after a night where we should all feel special and worthy? D: 

I don't know how I got from talking about my formal to this, it's just... I don't know. I don't want to keep it inside so I'll just post it, I'm sorry :') Has anyone ever felt like this? High school is only one part of our lives, but right now it's the part I'm living and it's over in less than 6 months. I want to try harder to make myself known and to keep my friends close.

I will forever continue to make people happy because it's a belief of mine that one day, somehow, I'll find happiness too through these actions. I watched as half my grade got drunk and those who I thought were innocent were doing who knows what, and felt like I was so innocent and didn't want to grow up anymore. I'm so behind. But I can't just change who I am. At the very least maybe I'll be remembered for being nice.

This is my second blog post and it's not helpful whatsoever, well done Nina :')  But I will hopefully post something that is more cheerful and my usual self!

Remember, if you're reading this, enjoy life and make every moment count!

                                                                            Nina

I've had this blog set up for a while now and although it's under construction still while I figure out the theme and such, I want to start posting! SO! Hello everyone who may stumble across this blog and wonder what it's about, well my mind is full of thought all the time and I thought I'd share them. 
I am half Russian/Australian, studying Japanese, a lover of cute things and slowly learning more about fashion and beauty like any normal teenage girl, so I hope I can share and review what I find here~ As a part of my personality and wanting to spread positivity, I go hard out in giving advice and helping out whenever I can, but I no longer want to just restrict it to just my circle of friends, I want to share what I say just in case it may help or brighten up someone's day!
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I guess I should start by introducing myself and who I am properly- I'm Nina, and my style, outlook on life and quirkiness didn't come overnight. I was just thinking today, that a few years ago I was a total tomboy who was nervous all the time and now I am almost the complete opposite. I feel like I have two personalities: there is the Nina who is always smiling, energetic, positive and saying random things, and, there is the Nina who can be serious, quiet and listen to whatever needs to be said. There is so much more to that, but I don't want to ramble on about myself~

Halfway through high school I was introduced to the anime Skip Beat! and fell in love with the anime world~ It sort of grew to my interest in Japanese/Korean fashion which helped develop my style, my love for KPOP and their cultures. I dress so girly and have love bright colours but coming from a family who has gone to road trips to the middle of nowhere in Australia, I'm not scared of getting my hands dirty.

 I love tea (hence the blog title), animals, food, scenery, the internet, anime/manga, cute things and clothes and making people happy. I think I spend an unhealthy amount of time 'internet window shopping'. ಠ_ಠ  I can go on! I hope that once I'm happy with all my customizing, I'll be posting reviews, helpful things like advice, my thoughts and activities and anything really~ I want to try a bit of everything. If you read this and have anything you want to see or have any ideas, let me know! ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ

This is a bit all over the place but I wanted to give you a brief intro on me and although I have no idea where I'm going right now with all of this, hello everyone and always enjoy life ♥

Nina